this is extremely random but i just thought that this is extremely cute! ehh, it's either hot chocolate or coffee in the chocolate cup, right? with whip cream? haha, whatever it is, this is still cute! XD

yeah. this is weird- so weird, too weird.

im not sure if any of my friends are noticing it but i have! i mean, it's myself so i'd definitely notice it first, right? maybe not all the time, but considering how i have always enjoyed knowing myself as a person… heh, i've noticed.

WHY AM I SUDDENLY ATTRACTED TO CUTE THINGS?!

i mean, im a girl, yes, but i have never been one delighted by cute things. besides the usual squealing over how adorable children and animals (and sometimes, dongbang and jay… and others), i really am not someone who runs with the cute stuff. but recently, i've realized, im increasingly and randomly attracted to cute things! T_T what is happening to meeeeee?!

maybe im growing up, that's why. but growing up and liking cute things don't really match up…? whatever, haha, im just gonna continue singing to "starlight, moonlight"~ it's one hecka cute song and im so terribly addicted to it! i thought my fever last week was to purge this sudden interest in cute things but apparently, it did not.

AND!!!

why am i beginning to find dongbang more and more sexy…? XD i mean, not that they were not before, it's just that i hardly ever called them that. maybe because they have grown up into really fine, handsome men now and because im transitioning into a 21 year old. LOL.

the thing is, i don't look 21 and i definitely don't behave 21.

LOL. i'll try my best to look my age! since i've realized that hmm, if i keep telling my mother that i don't want a boyfriend but a manfriend but always remain this kiddish girl, i will get neither a boyfriend nor a manfriend, right? HAHA, not that i want any right now- it was just a random thought.

uh, well, thinking about it again, i think i'd rather stick to how i am now and let nature take its course. if i grow up, then i will. if i don't, then i don't. i am comfortable with the way i am now, the way things are now. and i still don't think that i will ever have the energy to wake up early, dress up and put on nice make-up after doing my hair. i don't think i will ever, ever have this kind of energy. sleep is my best friend, next to my bed, and i don't like feeling foundation/power/whatever there is on my face. lol. i'll stick to my usual sunblock, eyeliner that you can never see and mascara that doesn't make much difference. :D

but haha, whatever, MY DONGBANG MEN ARE STILL FINE, HANDSOME MEN WHO ARE BEGINNING TO LOOK SEXY TO ME. especially yunho and jae. gosh, save me. these two, especially mr jung yunho, are the epitome of manliness.

sigh.

now i'll really never get a boy/manfriend, right?

EVEN SO!!!

oh dear, the sexy shoulder blades that are slightly jutting out... *faints*