i found you. =)

thank you for letting me find dongbang. thank you for letting me find these five wonderful voices. thank you for letting me find this love.

=)

is this how it feels like? to be in love? i wonder if this is what old couples, who have been together ever since the start of time, always feel. maybe there are times when you believe that you have gotten used to their presence, or when you cant find it in yourself why you love them so much. i wonder if this is what papa and mummy feels whenever they look at each other. is it the same as what i am feeling now?

i can never say this enough: i love dongbang. i love them so so so much, but there are times when i dont really wanna read up on their latest news. but i do it anyway. i enter the forum and i enter their thread. it is a routine that i have gotten used to; im not doing it because i want to do it. instead, it has become a part of me, and i'd feel weird all over if i dont do it.

honestly, if you were to ask me why i love them so much, i wouldnt have an answer for you. i used to, but then it slowly didnt matter anymore. that's when i knew that this is something real, something true. and haha, here i go again but really.. besides my family and friends, this is the other truest form of love i know now. i cant say i love jay yet, though i do believe that a little part of me does. LOL. he just cant compare to dongbang, you see?

i may be just a normal fan who adores her idols, but trust me, im not obsessed. i really dont go crazy when there are rumors/news of them dating or seeing girls. i mean, they are humans too- they are fricking grown men. i'd only go crazy if they dont date! that would mean that they are not normal, lmao! i dont go full out buying all of their singles or albums or merchandise; i only buy concert dvds and albums. lol. the posters in my room comes with the albums la, lol! i always say im mrsmicky blablabla but aiyah, i think micky and my personalities are too similar. he'd be better as a brother, haha.

and honestly, i've gotten so used to them, i am beginning to see them as friends instead. i dont wanna marry any of them and have nearly 80000 people running after me. O_O excitement is good but too much excitement overworks my heart which is not good~ lol!

but at times like now, i'd suddenly be so overwhelmed with love for them. i fall in love with them over and over again.. and each time, the love just becomes stronger. if i ever marry and have children, i hope that i will love my husband and my children like this.

is this what my parents feel whenever they look at each other?

instead of papa's tired face, mummy sees the handsome man she fell in love with and then falls in love with him all over again.

instead of mummy's wrinkled face, papa sees the radiant woman he fell in love with and then falls in love with her all over again.

because if this is love, then im more than certain that i love dongbang. :D

you have no idea how long i am- and the rest of us are- willing to wait just to see them five of them together again. =)