This is okay. I mean, I am fine with this. I understand why people would rather listen to others. LOL. I mean, ya, if I were someone listening to myself, I'm not even sure if I will want to listen on. I am always incoherent because of the way everything pushes to the front of my consciousness, always tripping and falling over my own words. I can understand if they don't know how it feels like to be like this all the time.

But it's getting so bad, I've reached the state of completely giving up trying to speak up and turning to writing instead. I find myself turning away from the surface and retreating into my bubble more often than before, and this is what is beginning to worry me. The only good thing, my own relief, is that I enjoy writing and it helps me cope with this little problem I have with speaking (as funny as it may sound; it looks completely absurd to myself lol). Thank goodness for writing- thank goodness for being able to write.

But.

What if one day, I give up entirely on trying to communicate with others?

It does get discouraging at times, tiring, even.