and so my favorite time of the year has arrived!
i feel that the way time works is really strange… how can it feel like so many things have happened in such a short time (a year, 365 days is short… not that i've ever experienced a year longer than 365/366 days, lol), and yet still feel like everything actually happened a long time ago? lol, im sorry i such at explaining how it feels, because until now i still haven't gotten grip on what exactly it feels like. in simpler but not-to-my-satisfaction terms, time has passed quickly and yet so slowly.
okay. done.
i cannot understand how it is only a year plus since i was reborn. yeap, i refer to that moment as my rebirth. lol. my second chance at living, haha. but yea, i cant understand. it feels like so long ago but then it was only last year. lol. this means that i've been spending time very fruitfully since then, right?
this year has been another crazy rollercoaster year and i've experienced so many things on a deeper level… it seems like with each passing year i get more and more personal with everything. lol. im not exactly complaining, because those late nights im kept up with my racing thoughts do lead me to a different perspective on life and i greatly appreciate it.
maybe the only thing i don't really appreciate is that i really get too personal- it feels like a little bit of myself is a part of everything. all the crazy emotional swings… it gets a little tiring, but then i always wake up the next day feeling very refreshed. okay, so maybe i appreciate even the crazy emotional up-downs. lol.
and yes, out of it all i just realize how complicated a person i really am. hmm, maybe instead of complicated, im just conflicted. LOL. all these contradicting beliefs and thoughts… one day i will find the balance amongst them all. :)
and yes, this year has been equally blessed too! :Dv
1. KOREA TRIP WITH FAMILY
it was a short 8 days, but it was these 8 days that brought us closer. :) when you get to see each other go crazy without the daily stresses and burdens of reality, it is difficult not to become closer.
it is also the 8 days where i got to experience having my parents and sissy rely on me for everything. as stressful as it was enjoyable. i like knowing that i am someone the people i love can depend on. :)
my favorite picture of paps and momsy! because they both look so happy. ^^ they both look so cute together, and papa gave in to every request mummy had for their poses! hahaha! HOW CAN I NOT LOVE THEM!
and ya, i also learnt that sissy is crazy enough to brave the cold winter wind IN NORMAL CLOTHES WE WEAR IN SINGAPORE. gawd i ran away the moment the doors slid open and she could still walk out, stand there for a few minutes and breathing cold air. CRAZY.
but that aside, I WANT TO TRAVEL TO MANY MANY MANY MORE PLACES WITH MY FAMILY! ^^
2. USS with my girls
(shirz is taking the picture for us and so she is missing here but GOSH I LOVE HER TOO!!!)
i know many people have gone there many times already, but it was my first trip there and i had a lot of fun with my girls! although i couldn't take many rides because of my weak heart… going crazy once is enough and i already went crazy once in korea by going on that crazy flip-everywhere-and-upside-down ride ALONE.
but hey, i wouldn't mind going back just for the simple things that children find joy and pleasure in~
3. My 21st birthday
enough said, it was a day where everybody i loved (and hopefully loved me back too) gathered in a place. although i was an inadequate host and had to run from group of friends to group of friends, i hope everybody could feel how much i appreciate them- and how much i love them!
once again, thank you to everybody who came!
especially to my 3003 girls who helped out for everything! the lights behind... it was assembled by nana and morgan! while i sat by the side and watched... lol!
4. the ninJAY again
birthday present from parents is a category a ticket to the HTC awards, and i tyco-ly tried emailing for the phototaking (only for the cat-a ticket holders) on the morning of checking out form the birthday chalet. i didn't make it, actually, but then someone had to withdraw and the whack chance was given to me. lol.
so yes, second picture with jay!
i could have sworn he grew a few cm taller but haha, it's either the shoe……… or insoles. XD
and third picture with jay!
this one also quite tyco and i was quite unwilling to wake up so early just to go queue for the phototaking… so i woke up an hour before and just went down… and made it. LOL. the girl who boarded the bus at the same bus stop was running and made me all panicky too! but im too lazy in the morning LOL. plus i haven't really recovered from chionging 2 crazy essays just the day before (yes, during the htc awards)!
5. DONGBANGSHINKI (aka the highlight of my 2011)
the most craycray 3 days of my life.
putting on my best behavior in front of dongbang and getting a nod of acknowledgement from maknae when i asked if they ate well, watching them perform live and seeing jung yunho my #1 favorite dancer dance that crazy in front of me with my very own eyes, seeing maknae scan through the audience with those sparkling eyes and last but not least, my admiration for red hair dancer and his unbeatable showmanship and getting acknowledged by him (on twitter and in real life, lmao).
and yes, i haven't forgotten, the lovely fellow cassies i've met! glad to know that im not alone anymore. :)
but yes.. please, bring dongbang back to singapore again, please! im human and im greedy, so i've decided that i cannot make do with just one time of watching them live! i want many, many more times of standing in front of them as part of the red ocean and just enjoying the moment with my favorite boys…
2012, bring DB5K to me!
so yes, 2011 has been a very crazy year… and i look forward to a crazier 2012! i think that 2011 has been a year for me to test my limits. really, i've been doing nothing but pushing my limits. lol. now that i know what i can and cannot do (just yet), i am going to take on new challenges in the coming year!
im looking forward to a stronger, better ellia!
and so...
HAPPY NEW TWO-OH-ONE-TWO!!!
CHEERS, AND FOR ME AND THE LOVE OF YOUR LOVED ONES, STAY SAFE, HEALTHY AND HAPPY!
/hugs for everybody
ps/ im actually having fun singing with my girls right now. hehe. :D
