hello.

life has been really hectic lately and doing what i've been doing for the past few weeks has really drained me. although i did manage to sneak in a not-so-short-but-very-short-to-me visit to kinokuniya, where i finally bought the last 3 books of the immortal series and book 3 of the fallen series, and then spent the next few days finish reading them all, im still tired.

no, it's not my body that is tired. it's not really my mind either, although school does dry up my brain. it's my soul that is tired. this kind of exhaustion seeps through my bones and-- ugh, im just really tired.

wake up, have breakfast, go to work, work, go home, eat, bathe, sleep. then wake up again, have breakfast, go to work, work, go home, eat, bathe and sleep again.

i used to think that im one who prefers things to stay the same but really, the past few weeks have proved otherwise. although having things happen in a systematic way provides security, it is boring. it is boring as heck, no matter how interesting the people i meet at work are.

i wouldn't exactly say im a spontaneous person either, because there are times when i don't really appreciate appointments that appear from nowhere. lol. because those are days i've decided to use for reading or something else… like sleeping. lol. sleep is important, okay. more people die from the lack of sleep than from the lack of food and water. that says something. but yeah, im not a spontaneous person. lol.

but i do enjoy going to bed just thinking about the things i'd like to do the next day, although i rarely ever end up doing them. lol. so yes, all those things in my schedule book are for show because i never open my schedule book at home. LOL. unless it is to add an appointment or something, haha. and really, i feel that waking up without anything to do in mind is a very nice feeling. then again, maybe it's just me. i like that little lost, aimless feeling when i just wake up. lol. what, i feel like im reborn again because of that feeling, okay! like i have the chance to start afresh, to redeem myself for anything i shouldn't have done but did… yeap.

so yes, im just a few days away from the last assignment and a week away from my exam. once that day is over, i can promise you that im going to spend the next day doing nothing but snoozing away. except i cant. because i need to work on something for dongbang. lol. but it is worth it~ because i get to dongbang for an entire day and that is the same as sleeping for five weeks. XD then it'd be just a week to seeing yunho and changmin live! *squeals*

okay, that's besides the point and there's no point trying to explain how excited i am (i actually am quite scared and want to cry) because nobody will ever understand. lol. but yeah. dongbang. hmm. lol.

i really cant wait for the holidays to come, because it is a break i so very need. i don't care if i deserve it or not, because a need is a goddamn need! this poor soul needs some time to rest and recover, to relish in whatever life has to offer~ i need to recharge, really. and by recharge, i mean to read, write, guitar, write, read, sleep and dongbang.

gahh. now i know why adults are angels who have lost their wings. im not going to subject myself to such torture, because, well, im not somebody who can bear to let herself be unhappy doing things she doesn't like.

oh well.

cheers and stay healthy!