hmm. this is gonna be a little crazy to some, but it makes absolute sense to me.

you know, it's not that i am thinking of death or anything and i really do want to live a long and healthy life, watch my children have children and watch their children grow up and stuff… it's just that life is always full of the unexpected. should i one day have to go because well, my time is up, can i have somebody promise me this?

1. you will love and protect my family the way i did and always will. scold my sister when need be and make my parents crack up at random jokes. creep into the kitchen quietly and then stand behind mummy, waiting for her to finally realize that you are there. have random talks with papa and entertain him when he bursts into random dance moves.

2. love dongbang the way i always will. support them the way you know i would have. always protect and defend the faith, their faith, my faith. spread the love and respect that jay has taught me and always walk with him.

3. remember me, but let me go. don't forget me, but accept it. and always, always be happy. i'll visit you in your dreams whenever i have the time. i don't know where i'll be at, but rest assured that i'll definitely already be at a much better place. :)

this is crazy. but i have no money, no valuables, no nothing to leave behind- all i have are these. them. me.

all i can leave behind are the love, faith and respect that i've always worn on my sleeves, and the memories of a girl who was fiercely dedicated to defending the six people she knew had to be protected, the memories of a girl who was always lacking in different areas but will always try to try give her best. and whatever memories you have of me, i really hope that they are lovely enough to keep the smile on your face whenever you think of me.

:)

don't wait.

go tell your parents, your siblings and your friends how much you love them right now. show your love for everybody, anybody, whether they know you or not.

go, do it now. don't hesitate anymore. :)