but there are also times when a random moment makes my entire being wrench with the pain of wanting to do something for them and having no choice but to accept that i am completely helpless.
i swear, if this was obsession, i wouldnt be sitting here right now. i'd be somewhere across this globe, somewhere near them. i'd be hyped up and preparing to leave for the states because their world tour will be continuing there, or for paris because that's where smtown'11 will be held at. i'd be busy flying between wherever yunho, changmin, jaejoong, yoochun and junsu are all at.
this is love.
just not love between lovers, friends or family- it's just love that fans have for their idols, love that all who call themselves cassiopeia have for dongbangshinki.
anybody who knows me will know that the period from mid-2008 to end-2009 was an awful period for me. i never got back up until mid-2010 but up until mid-2009, any pain was bearable because i had dongbang.
they were enough for me to be able to face all of my nightmares, they are now, too, and they always will be. my heart, my mind and my soul. life would be only half as colorful and half as meaningful with them. i know, because... i just do. (:
some things come to you as easy as breathing; some things come to you as it should like breathing.
i will always wait, not only because i know i have that enough patience but also because i believe that that day will come. it will come- it must come.
always keep the faith; love is the seed of faith.
school begins again today. gosh, second trimester already. CHIONG! i shall face school with a heart full of once again renewed and strengthened love for my five lovely angels.
and since i once vowed that i will never be able to go to korea again if i procrastinate even for a single second for any work this trimester (and following trimester, of course), then ellia ah ellia, you'd better NOT procrastinate! because you-- i mean, i still want to go to korea! hwaitinggg!!!
yeap.
I LOVE DONGBANG! mehrong~
