i think i was in between always having been up there and desperately trying to climb back up again after falling. i was always living up there; i always thought that hey, im all the way up here so i can see everything when in fact, i only see what i want to see. it's only after being violently kicked off and trying to get back up again did i finally realize that there is so much more to everything.

it was also then i learnt that if i really want something, i will strive towards achieving it, no matter what the stakes are. realized it, did it and ended up with tons of battle scars; i knew that i had to bite my tongue and so bore through all the pain only to end up having to stop dancing until my back got better.

of course, i was stubborn and all but at least i followed what i knew my heart was saying. being young and stubborn isn't necessarily bad, because i do believe that naivety fuels the purest dreams. i had a dream then, and i pushed through everything for it. i haven't been able to dance for the past one year (although we all know that i did cheat and dance… lol) but do i regret it? no, i don't. i did what i wanted to do; it is only right, isn't it?

i can go back to dance now, though. IM HAPPY ABOUT IT! but im too busy with school and stuff… im working at sorting out everything, though. if not today, there is always tomorrow! there is just no way i wont start dancing again. im not a good dancer but who said that people who cant do well at what they enjoy doing cant do it? o_o hahaha. my inferiority complex at play here. :( lol.

okaaay. this aside.

scars? i only have one scar, a scar that rounds the half of my entire being. it remains hidden and away from people's eyes, but i see it every breathing moment. sometimes i cry and sometimes i am sad, but most of the time i'll let myself be swept up by a cloud of wistfulness.

this scar is my pain, this scar is my nightmare.

this scar is my win, this scar is my trophy.

this scar is my past, this scar is my reflection.

this scar is my joy, this scar is my pride.

i made it through, and so can you. (: