안녕하세요~

오늘 촣은 이예요. 근대 기분이 좀니빠요. 채 배 많이많이 아빠요! ㅠㅅㅠ

okay, then i dont know how to continue already. my korean isnt that good yet, haha. cant wait for saturday; intermediate korean lessons will begin! :DD cant wait, cant wait!

and haha, i need to revise what i learnt in basic class. i think im turning rusty because i havent been writing much korean, but i’ve been speaking and thinking alot of korean! :DD plus, i’ve been taking down words (from programs) that im curious about. because they sound pretty~

hmm. today was a pretty stressful day, i guess. i havent felt this way in a long time.. not that i want to feel this way, but sometimes, it’s inevitable. given my character, haha, it’s already a discount. i get stressed easily, but they go away quickly too. i get blue easily, but they go away quickly too. i get frustrated easily, but they go away quickly too.

maybe it’s because im too sensitive to the changes around me, or maybe im too emotional, or maybe because i cant control my emotions well enough. i think it’s a mixture of everything. i mean, my feelings are like an open wound; they are extremely raw and extremely sensitive. that’s how i think i am, haha, raw to the touch.

and well, finally got started on the final drafts of everything. i cancelled out alot more than i drew. -_- im still far from the beginning but im already expecting alot. i do tell myself to calm down and not be so harsh on myself, but if i cant even survive my own cruelty, how am i supposed to get out of the damn forest, alive?! even if i need to crawl out (but i’ll be taking strides of pride, haha), i want to be able to get out.

grrrr.

im beginning to believe that the one thing im best at is doing all i can, within my means, to bring myself down. im just addicted to tearing at myself, always trying to break myself apart. not that it’s a habit i want to get rid of that badly..